Dear "Anonymous"

This is a letter to "Anonymous" who left a message on my blog so it might not make a lot of sense to anyone except her...

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Hello!

Firstly, thank you so much for your kinda words. But honestly, it's nothing to do with me. I am a useless rusty tool that God uses despite my own enormous inadequacy.


Secondly, your message really broke my heart because I could honestly feel your heart-ache and the pain you are going through.

I can also see myself a few years ago.


My advice would be...don't settle for something out of fear of not being able to get anything better.

Don't accept this situation just because 'it's the way things are'.


Please.


You are unbelievably blessed to have the feelings that you are having about your relationship.

Insight like that is, truthfully, a GRACE FROM GOD.

My goodness you even abstain from Communion! (as you rightly should)

God Bless You!!

Many Catholics may not even know what Communion is, but how blessed you are for recognising Its worth, and your state of sin!!

I thank the Holy Spirit for how much He loves you, and the graces He has given you!


The vast majority of people stumble through life engaging in sinful behaviour and they either convince themselves it's not wrong, or quite frankly don't care that it's wrong.

You know it is wrong, and you care that it's wrong.

That doesn't come from you, but from God, who loves you so much and has an amazingly beautiful plan in mind for your life...but one that you can't do if you carry on like this.

That feeling inside is Him calling you by name and asking you to trust in Him.

It's probably absolutly terrifying and you may lose all the plans that you had for your future, but you will gain Him more fully, and He will give you back everything in a more pure and wonderful way than you can imagine.




I know everyone says this and perhaps often without thinking...but God loves you.

and you know what that means?

He wants you to be happy! TRUELY HAPPY!!

As Jesus says, 'what parent would give his child a snake if he asked him for an egg?' and so how much unbelieveably more does God love you?!!

He wants you to have that happiness and indescribable joy that comes from knowing and loving Him, by doing His will!

That joy that comes from being brave and entrusting your entire life to Him, even if it seems to have to foresake what you had planned for yourself.


You sounded so sad and unhappy in your little note.

Please don't accept the situation as it is just because it seems too difficult not to.

To me it seems like, deep down, you know what you have to do, but are being held back by fear...


I would advise you first and foremost to stop immediatly the behaviour in question. Not just for spiritual reasons (i.e. it is mortal sin) but also for psychological reasons (you are being very hurt by it).

Secondly I would advise you to reassess the relationship. Be brutally honest with yourself about your faults, his faults, his good qualities, your good qualities and the future of the relationship together.

Bear in mind whether the future of your relationship with your fiance will require you to sacrifice God and how spiritually healthy it is.

Can you blossom and grow into a beautiful person by being with this boy?

Does he help your over-come your faults and grow ever closer to each other and to God?

Would he be a good father and help his children get to Heaven?

If you feel in your heart that this relationship is not right ( my 2cents, that is what I kinda sensed from you)....then I would have to say to be brave and to trust God.
It is truthfully better to go through with all that comes from ending the relationship now, than to go through a life-time of this horrible horrible emotional pain, and hurting Jesus, living outside His will.


Also, on a practical note....you can't marry the boy as you are feeling now. For one, it certainly seems like you don't really want to...you are scared and worried and deep down I'm not sure it's really what you want.

You want real love. True love.

and that's not what you have.


My secret of true love?

Love God first, above and beyond every single thing else. Always try and do His will, and daily strive to be better for Him and to love Him more.

That is honestly the secret to true love.

Because the more and more you genuinely love God, the more and more you will be able to genuinely love other people, and the more you truely love others, the happier you will be with every realtionship....friends, coworkers, parents, siblings, fiance...etc


True happiness can only come from doing things the way God desires; please please don't accept anything less FOR ANY REASON!


Also, married life will be horrible if it is a daily fight.

It will be horrible if you are always feeling like you are journeying alone with no cooperation. If you are living with a person who doesn't understand you, who doesn't care about your eternal salvation and makes no efforts to help you get there.

It will be horrible if you feel you are having to offend God because the person you are married to doesn't believe in God and doesn't care.

It will be horrible if you are left alone to raise children in their faith, while their father is anti-religion and undermining & putting down all your efforts.


please please please...don't be afraid!

We honestly lose NOTHING by giving our lives to Christ, but instead gain EVERYTHING.

I speak not from pretty theories but from honest raw personal experience.

Honestly and truthfully, you will gain MORE than you can imagine by giving up every sin!


Perhaps you should go sit in front of a tabernacle alone and cry if you want to, and tell Jesus everything and ask for His help. He will answer.

Turn also to Mary, because she was so brave and trusted so perfectly in God.


Know that you are sincerely in my prayers and I will offer up my next time of adoration your your needs.

God Bless

with so much love

your sister in Christ,

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