Skiving skool

I decided to give myself the day off today from Uni. I normally never skip anything and go to all my lectures and clinics (Chris calls me 'Nerd Girl' in fact cos I even go to stuff I don't necessarily *have* to go to!!) but I couldn't do it today.

Today was supposed to be my turn at the 'Family Planning/Termination of Pregnancy' Clinic.

That is, contraceptions and abortions. over and over and over.

I initially thought I might go to see what happens from the inside, but frankly, I just can't stomach it. I can barely cope when I have sat in Clinics and doctors have prescribed the coil to help with heavy bleeding, because I think about all the little embryos that it will kill.

I think it would be horrible to be in a Clinic where, for 4+hours every single patient coming in either wants contraception or abortion. I just don't want to be there.

I don't know if it's the right decision to make or not..... Maybe I should go and try to see how the system works in practice....

Maybe if I went I could say something....not to the patients because as a student I'm not allowed to give my opinion to them (I would get (metaphorically) shot by the Clinical Dean!), but maybe I could say something to the doctors...

but, to be completely honest, I don't know if it would change anything if I did say something to the doctors.
Doctors who perform abortions have studied, better than I, about the developing unborn baby, and have pulled babies out in chunks from their mother's stomach. They aren't in denial that they are killing little humans. They just don't think that this little human is worth anything.

In addition, they know that some people don't agree with abortion, so even if I said "But every single human is of incomparable worth and value from the moment of conception, and killing an innocent blameless human is always wrong" - they would say "well, I don't agree."

I dunno, maybe I should've gone just *in case* I could say something and it did make a difference.

But I have seen it in little dribs and drabs...abortion recommendations in case the baby has Down Syndrome, that teenage girl who just wanted to 'get rid of it', the endles endless endless contraception....

A whole clinic of the 2 things in medicine that pain me the most would be so horrible and stressful, that although I was undecided, as the time approached I just couldn't bring myself to go.

So if you participate in Mass today, please pray especially for those women who are allowing murder to happen inside them, and especially those doctors whose hands perfrom it.

Oh, and also for all the Catholics who use contraception (99% of all married Catholics).